So being busy isn’t always best.
I forgot to keep track and write series about Chloe’s 15th month
birthday because I was caught up with too many chaotic movements that don’t actually
matter.
So many things need to be done. Moving
out of our apartment, finding a new place and going out of the country is
creating more chaos than excitement. I’m so stressed that I freak out on every
single thing or people I came in contact with.
Too bad my daughter is unleashing
more of her “naughty” side, testing my limits to a more frustrating level. Like
for example when Mommy said “don’t play with the electric fan” she would run as
fast as she could just to get away from Mommy and accidentally bang her head on
the wall. Oh great, all that Mommy wanted is for her daughter to be safe and
free from accidents but now she’s hurt. But because Mommy was so stressed with
the world outside home, not to mention the kind of pressure she was under,
MOMMY BECAME A MONSTER. She ended up hitting the baby instead of hugging and
calming her down which is more frustrating as a mother.
And it hits me. I felt like I’d
failed at all aspects of motherhood.
I learned my lesson the hard way.
I’m glad I have a very supportive husband to calm both the mommy and the baby.
He hugged the upset baby and told me that these are all normal part of how kids
learn and grow and that I should not take things personally. I’m relieved.
And Chloe being the sweetest 16th
month old girl I always know, she held my hands and I gently whispered to her
ear how sorry I was and that I love her so much.
Xoxo,
Mommy
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